Spirituality and compulsion...

There seems to be a fine line between a truly spiritual experience and the compulsion to exert that power through other means. It can be such a surge of energy, something new, something overwhelming, that the soul cries out for familiarity and is drawn to a compulsion that may have formerly been our undoing.

For example, sexual addiction, in whatever form, may be the outlet. When this surge comes, the temptation is great to take that power and wield it to obtain release, bypassing all restraint, every normal means to fight it, so great is the energy.

This is why prayer is so important, and so difficult. It makes no sense. There is "nothing" there, no tangible, tactile anything to provide us comfort. We direct our comfort to something, some One, we cannot see. Faith and prayer. So very difficult, so very different yet the two principle things by which a deeper life is lived.

I feel power surging through my veins. Is this a calling of God? Or is the power my resistance?

Time to pray...