Fumbling Toward Insolvency (Part 4)

The finances are taking a toll on the relationship.

There are things we (or is that I?) want to do and right now we can't do them. We can't even go out to eat without it being painful. Every dollar spent on 'entertainment' is one less dollar toward our goal. 

Beyond paying off debt, which is the most essential goal as it is the most detrimental, there are desires we have, places we'd like to go, things we'd like to see and even people we'd like to be able to help.

A January court date will cost $3K just for the lawyer road trip alone, not to mention the hours and hours of work involved in gathering up documentation and researching for the appearance, as well as all the work involved on our end should it go forward. Quite daunting and the local work being done is not panning out and our patience, and time, is rapidly running out.

And no one really seems to give a rip.

No one calls us back for the trenchwork, sewer replacement work, quotes are not what we were led to believe they were, insurance doesn't cover any of the work that needs done, need new tires before winter, can't afford an oil change and the pressure is mounting daily.

Fumbling toward insolvency is more like waiting for it all to collapse.

I'm tired.

Perhaps I should stop with the false sense of God 'doing' something for us and just flow with the Dao and let it all go.